This innocuous book stumbled on my attention in 2005 and it’s passed through my hands several times since. I had no inclination to peruse its contents for I had ceased to think in miracles. In 2005, I was cursing God for abandoning me. I was using all my energy to stave off the hell I descended into 15 years earlier by marrying a man as un-Godly as anyone could be.
In 2007, while packing some books as donations for a book fair, my hand once again fell on “A Course in Miracles “.By this time around, I had secured a divorce from my husband but was still coping with the fallout. As I grasped the book, I became very thoughtful and calm. That which was it about that book that invoked feelings I hadn’t experienced in an exceedingly number of years? My hand clung to the book refusing to put it down. Realizing that this is an indication that I had better have a closer look, I made a pot of tea and sat in the best reading chair. With great curiosity, I focused on the blue hardcover and read “A Course in Miracles, a foundation for inner peace.” Wow. Which was a fairly bold statement but okay, I made a decision to bite. Having a deep breath, I pondered probably the most obvious question: What IS the building blocks for inner peace? This book instantly opened a vintage wound and it had better have the clear answer to healing.
“A Course in Miracles” is actually that, a course. Written in three parts, this book is never to be taken lightly and cannot be read in weekly or even a month un curso de milagros. There’s text, a workbook for students and a guide for teachers. I had the sudden urge to fling the book across the room because I was deeply and profoundly afraid. I instinctively understood that once I began looking over this book, I would have to improve and was I ready for the journey ahead?
My favorite movie is “The Matrix “.The main character Neo is trying to find the clear answer to the matrix. He understands the matrix exists but he doesn’t know very well what it is. The person with the clear answer, Morpheus, contacts Neo and offers the chance for truth giving Neo a selection between going for a blue pill or a red pill. Take the blue pill and remain ignorant or take the red pill and find the clear answer to the matrix. Before he reaches for his pill of choice, Morpheus cautions Neo which should he pick the red pill, he can never go back to living he had been living.
“A Course in Miracles” is the red pill. Do I read it and change everything I know about the world and myself or do I take the blue pill and make “A Course in Miracles” book fair fodder?
As I choke down the red pill, I flip to Lesson 1 of 365 in the workbook for students and promptly read, “Nothing I see in this room means anything “.Oh dear. Can it be too late to take the blue pill?